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I'm Great, fine, spectacular. In a way
I relish every night, and I live every day.
I live, I laugh, I write, I sing,
I wonder what the new days will bring.

Then I get home, and I take off the mask.
The day, and almost impossible task,
Is finally over, and so I lie Down,
and wait patiently for the day that I die.

I cry, I scream, I bawl, and sleep,

even though I have promises to keep.

I wait, and wonder, and cry some more
And I ache and burn from my very core

Then, I'm not alone, and the mask reappears:

Out goes the grief, pain and all of the tears,

As I am a happy person, cheerful all the day.

A world full of rainbow, not one shade of grey.

Of course I'm not okay, I'm not fine,

No matter how much I seem to shine.

I don't even know why I feel this...

Why my existence is one long, endless abyss.

But it is, and will be, so I cling to life,

As one day I might slip, and end it with a knife.

But, I'm still here, no matter what my dreams might say

And I hope that one day I will actually be okay.
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dianavam Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
thats going in my favs
melnic228 Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2010
Lovely words and feelings so realistic it hurts to read. You've definitely nailed this feeling. I feel like this almost everyday, acting all cheery to avoid issues that come up from mention of my depression and then just letting myself fall when I get home. I'm hoping that you are recovered/recovering if you're posting this. Gives me hope
Leopard-of-Time Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is so true, and is unfortunately a cold reality for so many people.

A fantastic poem -- the lines flow very well, and you've created quite an image. Good work.
xxskullqueen1234567 Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2010
thankyou =)...i try to go down into the deepest core of my emotion and spill it out onto a piece of paper
Leopard-of-Time Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Well, ya succeeded. :D great job.
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